I tried too hard

Im currently havin stuffy nose,fever and slight sore throat..so imma make this post short and sweet.I just hung up a phonecall with a friend.And Im feeling super useless.althou we'r not BFFs or whatever..I thought my advises wud be at least a slight bit of help fer her.but it turns out tt shes too blinded...by LOVE.Im tired...really tired.a yr ago..my Bff went thru smtg like tt..and i really hate this kinda feeling..when the person tt u care fer is hurt..and theres nth tt u can do bout it..

im glad tt my Bff and her bf is doing fine now.hope tt 'xx' (u knw im referrin ta u.) will WAKE UP soon.

So anyway..I just read one of my close fren's blog..having an indescribable feeling..someone supported u...great.im glad fer u.

Im not happy at all.dont know what does happy mean.dont want ta know either.maybe i shd just disappear.cos i dont feel my existence matters anyway.

ok..i knw its just another emo poset.if ur bored of my repeatative boring entries..no offence ppl..just close this window!




BEAT OUT.gave up.

I really...MADE A SCENE!

hellos peeps!So..I mentioned in my previous post tt I'll blog bout my scope test if I made a scene right?ok..here goes..

the doc..was really nice...he placed some anesthetic cotton wool into my nose..assuring me that its gonna fine..and tt it's just gonna be a simple scope test..checking whats the root of the prob tt i have frequent nose bleed..so i sorta relaxed abit..so den..he started ta put the tube in..and GOD..i tell u..it was so DAMN uncomfortable la!!! The tube hit abt my nose..touching the sides..and the anesthetic liquid was freaking bitter!!! ( A MILLION TIMES WORSE DEN BITTER GOURD! )

Seconds later..the doc found the broken blood vessels..and explained ta me why it broke and stuff with the stupid tube still in my nose...and I was thinking..' cud u like take it out first and den explain?!!urghs!' And just when i thot it was over..he decided ta check my left nose.so i was like...whaever..i just wanna get over it...so den..my roller coaster ride began.......
Cos intially..the doc thinks tt he cud just use silver nitrate crystals ta tempt burn the sensitive blood vessel..but..the anesthetic cotton wool procedure was far too miserable..so...the doc initiated an 'awesome' idea..and the idea was ta do a small surgery straight away..cos he explained tt the percentage of recovering totally using silver nitrate crystals wud only be 60%..while the electro-magnetic wave will have a 99% recovery...but honestly..my face totally fell man.cos..surgery requires injections..=(

ok...so..ta cut this entry shorter..i shall jump straight ta the surgery..when i was in the surgery theater..my nose and throat was already numbed..so when the doc inserted the needle into my nose..i was not the least bit afraid..bt den..just when i was sorta relaxed...i felt a sting!the sting..or rather...pain,was there fer several mins..i grabbed fer my mama's fingers..think i nearly broke them..LOL. (sorry mama!) so.so.so.den..the doc took out the needle..and just when i thot the injection was over..he said.'take a deep breath..just one more stinging sensation..' with his widest smile* i was horrified..and this time..his so called 'stinging sensation' was pure shit!
I felt the needle went thru frm the right side of my nose cartilage to the left..CAN U GUYS IMAGINE?totally went thru lo....I moaned like hell.

Minutes later..the doc removed the needle..and placed a weird metal stick into my nose..and the 'REAL' torment began!=( I cant think of any words ta describe the feeling..its just..agonizing..I guess tts when I 'MADE A SCENE'...and i only knew bout it after the surgery was over..haha..I..erm..aiya.I just tore a bedsheet la..HAHA! how violent right?cos I was practically kicking and fidgeting the whole time...so i guess tts how i tore the bedsheet..and oh ya..its made of paper la..NEE-HAHA.=p..so ya..when it was over..even my teeth were all numb..had no appetite fer several hrs..until dinner time..

Went over ta tpy ta have lunch with Qing..Viv cudnt join us cos she wasnt feeling quite well..but it's alright..I'll be seeing her tmr!Will be having breakfast and work tgt!=)

***Qing-rmb our pinky promise!
***Carissa-You can do it babe...persevere!=)
***Zing-sweetie..how I wish tt 'no life' can see wat u read frm BIBLEZINE!!!

alrights..tts all fer today.=)

guess im too used ta my singlehood.

Please..lemme be NUMBED

It seems like just entries ago tt I've mentioned tt I've gotta go ta the hospital at the end of the month ta do a nose scope test...oh my..now..its already 'end of the month'....sighs..
Later im gonna have my scope test...earghs! Im not sure if they're giving me any injection befer putting the tube into my nose..down my windpipe..oh my...dont even wanna imagine the pain tt I'll be goin thru..in like...9.5 hrs time....Im so gonna tear lo..might need ta hold onto my mama's hand real tight...cos...i doubt i can even scream...=(

Days are passing by so fast...its like..one min im class..next min...class ends....den im like off ta work..den...busybusybusy...and work ends..ok..i knw im not really typing any sense here..haha..who cares..its my blog...im just a plain borer..haha

now as Im typing..my sickening bro is like singing some irritating animation song...and hes like..25!LOL..i shd really record it someday and play it fer u guys ta hear..im not afraid man..since he totally have gt no idea tt i've gt a blog...NEE-HAHAHAHA!=)

hmms..donno wat else ta type..guess tts bout it...will update if i made a scene in the consultation room..LOL..

i want anesthetic!

Realise I've gt no title fer this entry?tts because I cudnt think of any..lol..

Time...just goes..every sec..if only I cud turn back time..
Really miss sec sch days..when we cud all meet each otha everyday..

Think I shd learn ta stop thinking back all the time..
LEARN TA MOVE ON KRISTINE!

ok..gotta start preparin fer sch!..once agn..IM LATE..hehehe

time after time

Backspaced.

Ok..Im currently waitin fer Sharifah ta finish writing some stuff..and den i've ta type it out and mail ta him.LOL..shant elaborate..=)

So anyway, we'r like at The Coffee Bean..doing our PPFM assignments...yeppy..we've covered pretty much today!YEAH~ JUST A LIL MORE KRISTINE!!! endure!!!

But im so not discipline right?To be blogging when im suppose ta be doing my assignments..LOL.
okok..shall place my full concentration on my work now=)

jzeying..guess u can understand my title..lol


I hate growing up.

I needa take a HOLIDAY

=( Assignments..work..grrr....
I wanna go fer a holiday so much!!!somewhere FAR far away frm all these hectic daily cycles..
Its so diff ta trust ppl these days..hypocrites are like..everywhere..arghs=/ shant elaborate.

So anyway..met up with qing this evening and left fer town ta meet carissa,keith and vivian...

*Carissa,Keith, HAPPY 16TH MONTHVERSARY!!!
had a great night with u crazy couple!=)

ok..back ta my night..
met them up ta head over ta esplanade ta watch fireworks festival..
Today's fireworks were displayed by France..
hmms..not really fascinating I must say..took some pics thou..
cant wait fer tmr's,korea's display..
after the display,we were suppose ta find some place ta chill..
but sigh..cudnt find any seats at starbucks =(
soon..dex left..so did viv..so all of us decided ta head home...

So anyway..mama is coming home tmr evening!!=)
YEAH~ lesser house-chores fer me! Yeppy!!!
but well..I really miss her loads..she fell sick today..slept in the hotel the whole day..poor her..hope shes getting better!

suddenly..I've got the urge ta say...
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I miss..Jzeying,Stitch,kai xin and may lwin
havent met them up fer quite awhile..hope they'r all doing fine..love them=)


ok..smtg random..days ago..viv told me bout a jerk being interested in 3 gals...real ass i must say!ok..i knw its really random..and ta some ppl..u must be wondering who the hell am i referring to..well..only my close mates knw..hehehe..=)

De Amor!

Just a day, just a ordinary day...

LONER

Work is so..how shd I put it??A total cycle..freaking sian..althou my colleagues are reeally nice ppl..but well..theres like nt much crowd at all lo!BORING~

Im so glad I finally got my phone back!Honestly speaking..Nokia N-series cannot make it la..My phone had this 'phone memory low' msg popping out every sngle mth..when most of the time,im usually using my memorycard.-_-. And when it does..my phone wud just kinda freeze..cant send out any text msg..damn pissed off lo..So well..used a bangla* phone a day and thank god..had my phone back.But...BUT..I just realise i did a utmost stupid thing.I DELETED ALL MY PICS BEFER SENDING FER REPAIR...WHEN ACTUALLY..ALL MY MY PICS WERE IN MY MEMORYCARD.like WTF rights? My bro is currently tryin ta use some software ta try retrieve my deleted pics...fingers crossed*. =(

When was the last time I really had a BFF gathering? DXO night?or when was it?I dont quite rmb...it seems ta me tt viv is quite busy with dex,work and sch...qing?sch..but shes havin her hols now..so shd be putting her full concentrations on her laogongs' shows..lol..as fer myself..i've already mentioned in my previous post..its all bout sch,work..and more work.Tmr Im finally ahving my off-day..but sadly viv cant meet me cos shes gt some things ta attend to...Nt sure bout qing..might text her later..Im like thinkin..if shes busy as well..I might try catching a movie alone..it cud be interesting..haha..IMAGINE.

Hmms..I might catch Batman tmr..hehe..
so anyway..the pics below were taken outside my place..love them!



aint they breathtaking???!

peace out*

Drained.

GAHHHS.its like 3am..and im actually having the urge ta blog.Firstly is because qing says my blog is soooooooooo DEAD..and shd just delete it..so here i am..BLOGGING!lol.althou im extremely beat out.-_-.
lifes been pretty hectic these days..Sch.work.home. and den Sch.work.home. Yea..its a boring life tt ur reading about..lol.

Its been quite awhile since I've srsly felt 'ecstatic'..
Well..ta start off..the ARENA night was not exactly 'fun'.lol.
and recently..I've been burying myself in work..nv had much time ta hang out with sharifah and kerlyn after class..sigh...hopefully I can find a replacement fer myself asap..cos i've got 2 assignments ta rush..each requires 2000 words.=( *^$#@%&&^$#%&*^$........

I CANT WAIT FER 'THE HILLS' SEASON 4!!Premiering on august 18..yeppy~~~

SIGH.I have yet ta watch Dark knight and The mummy. Sob big time.=(
How random.lol.

Ok...so recently..I've been really into this song..shall share the lyrics with you guys.=)


peace out*

Screaming..without a sound.

I've been watching 'The Hills' lately..and it was only a wk ago when I realise it was the continued version of 'Laguna Beach',another reality series tt I used ta catch on MTV.So anyway..The show is really..hmms..how shd I put it?Realistic?!Sounds like a duh~ thing ta describe the show..haha^_^
Theres so much fun in watching this show..its like..somewhat bitchy at times..and a lil annoying ta see certain childish ppl react over some trivial matters..but I truly enjoy watching and I cant wait fer Season 4!!!!

So recently..'*' has been texting me..and honestly..I have no idea wat u want from me..If you're contacting me purely just wanting ta stay as frens and nth more..well..of cos I wud love ta jk ard and be there fer u..but pls,dont cross the line.If you're thinking why wud I actually thot of tt..well..tts because we have always been acquaintance all these yrs..and its weird ta receive texts frm you not been quite sure bout what you truly want of me..hmms..hope you get my drift..

Anyways..Last wednesday,I went ta ARENA with Vivian and Eliza!!Hmms..its been mths since I've been ta any clubs..I wud rate the night 6/10. Cos its really unusual tt I wud get exausted after dancing to 1 song..And its like...I was sitting ard 3/4 of the time..dont knw why la.So anyway..one of viv's father's fren works there..and he was so nice ta reserve a table fer us while we were in the ladies..and not forgetting tt he actually treated us ta some food!!!=) But sigh..we left pretty early..think it ard..2 plus?cant rmb..haha.

So when I reached hm..the first thing I did was ta wash up and stuff..While I was washing my face..I smell smtg weird..so I opened my eyes...and was disgusted with my reflection..there was like..bloody foam all over my face!My nose started ta bled agn.=( Grrrrrrrs.Woke my mum up..but she closed her door after saying shes extremely beat out....-_-
Viv was so funny la..when I told her bout it..she was like..'did u take a pic of ur reflection?' LMAO.

So last night..my mum FINALLY brought me ta consult the doc.And it turns out tt..A few of my nose vessels broke..and I'll have ta do some scope test and a small surgery.SOBS.The last time I did it was nearly 9 yrs back..I cant believe having ta have some disgusting tube down my nose and having some silver nitrate crystals ta 'burn' the vessels once agn!!! CRIES***

I've missing sch fer days..kinda miss sharifah and kerlyn babes!

My mum is going fer another vacation..dumping me aside fer 10 days.sigh....YES..there'll be alot more freedom..but man..Im gonna miss her like crazy la..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KERLYN BABE!!!


PICTURES!

In Arena



A random pic of me=)




Peace out*